Have you ever??

Have you ever..
had to sacrifice yourself...
...to care someone you never knew or cared about
Have you ever..
...fallen in love with someone when you know you shouldn't
Have you ever..
had to go against everything you know..
...just to be with him or her
Have you ever..
found the one you've been looking for
Have you ever..
fallen deeply in love with someone
to find out she or he isn't perfect in every way
But when looking into his or her eyes
you realized all you need
...is to be with him or her??

is it me or is it u??

No matter how close u are to me..
even when u're nex to me..
i feel somehow like we're strangers..
u're only a few steps away from me..
just a distance away..
yet i feel i can never reach you...
what the heck is goin on??
why is this happening to me??
i never hope for anything in return..
yet i feel my heart isn't right..
all i want is to ur smile and ur happiness..
yet i feel becoz of me u don show that side of urs..
somehow im feeling there's someone in ur heart..
and i know that it will never be me..
but no matter what..
i like the way u are..
always have and always will..
hoping that u're find ur true love..
tho i know it will never be me..
yet all i can do is stay by ur side..
always watching and trying to be there for u..
till then if u need me..
i'll definitely be there...
as a fren or a family..
i'll just sit here quietly..
till the day u need me..

Tired but happy!!!

LOL!!!!!im going crazeeeee!!!!!!hahahahaha...
so so so many assignments to go crazee about...
but yet..haha..today is oso my 1st day back to work at the same place..tun jugah...
SALES starts TODAY!!!!!!!and omg....stocks oso come today...working there for so long..1st time come so many stocks...50++ boxes..big boxes...
hrmm..i did have fun this morning after class..me, esther and vivian..of to Padang Merdeka..laughing and shouting over the cotton flying all around...feels like snow..i took some pics..will upload it soon when holiday comes..
so tired and sleepy now..don think i'll have the energy for assignments eh..
Lol...i've picked something up from G2000 for someone to try it on after work..it fits...hahahaha...
im happy...
but..eeeewwwww...scorpian!!!!!!!!!!!!!!in the tortoise house..kesian la that tortoise move from big house to small house eh...
Lol...btw, today isn't my lucky day...kinda unlucky..1st the stocks..2nd poh chun and the stocks..arghhh!!!!!3rd....stocks again..because of the stocks i kena KEMEK by the elevator door....zzzz...

about yesterday's presentation...Lol...total disaster..isn't what i really expected...i was ready..but everytime when i step up front....stage fright and everything went wrong...=.= but forget it la..it's over..i handed in my work...done...comm studies..poof..history of arts..haha...pass...oh yeah!!!!
yesterday was another happy day for me..lerrr...it seems..that person happens to bring me my smile 24/7..

let it be a better day for me tomorrow...

Lalalalalala...off day from school...hoho..

Today is a day to laze..not suppose to..but..haha..i did..
finally i started my canvas..but confirm cannot finish on time for presentation la..
haha..started 1st layer white pelaka only..omg..im such a lazy bump la..can anybody cure me??
at least im doing my comm studies..and this supergirl ain't goin to sleep tonite..not planning to tho..

我到底是谁
在你心中占有怎样的地位
你不说清楚
你让我们的爱坠在七里雾
爱 很讨厌
总是忽近又忽远的让人追
追半天
你连抱歉
一句抱歉也不给
我发誓千遍
我这一走你就无法挽回
虽然心会痛
总比受尽委屈还要更好过
我 等了等
脑海始终浮现你对我的好
好半天
你连Baby
一句安慰也不给
我向前走
低着头
眼泪不停向后流
一直走
不回头
希望你会找到我
但是始终不如愿
希望都落空
我仍相信
其实你爱我
一前 一后
你跟在我的背后沉默  
前前 后后
希望你握住我的手
我向前走
抬起头
擦掉眼泪向前走
一直走
不回头
相信你会找到我
梦里寻他千百遍
希望都实现
我不想走
无法心不动

What a Day!!!

OMG....im so so so so exhausted...so long didn't go out till lidat arrr..well..it's one of my happiest day to remember yet a day i so wanna 4get..all becoz of what happen nearly at the end o the nite..
well..i know everybody's exhausted tho..me..him..him..him..and her..haha..it all started at 8am when i woke up..pick her and the guys from rumah budget..down to ray salon for photo taking..had fun there..omg..someone put up the kite so so so high..

btw...pics will be put up soon..not atm..it's too messy..too many...

lunch at king centre then off to the spring..walao..the kids so annoying la..haha..i have lots of happy memories to remember today..laughters and fun...limkokwing fashion show..hrmm...hard taking the pics with the kids around..but no idea whenever u're around..i just feel so nice having u around..every problem since to just go away...i guess im too addicted to u..

omg..went hom not up to 5 minutes..then off to budget house..i fell asleep..omg...wake up rush to spring agai for the nite bridal fashion show..and so so so so so pissed...guess what?? 4got my SD card...wth???4get bout that..the worst thing that spoiled my nite was my car out of the parking..
let's just keep it between me and them..i've totally no mood talking bout it..yet at that moment i felt hurt bout something but again i have to keep it to myself..


clearing my boredness...here i go again..haha..

"it hurts when the 1 you love hurts you.."
"it hurts when u know that the 1 u love doesn't love u, but it hurts even more when u know that the 1 u love, love others and never loved u before.."
"it hurts when the 1 u love tells u the truth, but it hurts even more when the 1 u love lies to u and when u know the truth urself.."
"it hurts when u're not around, but it hurts even more when u're around hurting me.."
"it hurts when u don care bout me, but it hurts even more when u actually care but u're pretending not to care.."
"it hurts when u dono, but it hurts even more when u noe something yet pretending not knowing.."

how i'd wish..
u could let me noe how u feel
u could hug me and never let me go
u could hold my hands and never let me go
u could kiss my forehead and tell me u love me too
u could give me an answer for all this
u could smile for me everyday of ur life and not for others
u could be there for me as i can be there for u
how i'd wish
how i'd wish...
that i even meant someone important to u
and be a part of ur life..

what's goin on??

Here's what's goin on lately..haha..im busy taking pictures..well..and whole lot of assignments to do...omg..im goin to die..and lots of phone calls coming in today...headache..with the airconditioner back in my room...im not that used to it..so i got sick...and again..ya..i'll be back working for a week+ back in G2blu...sales about to start..haha..later back to photo shooting the actual day for the fashion show in Spring..but for now..here's some rehearsal pics and candid pics..

Here is some pics during the rehearsal nite at The Spring..
It was 12 midnite for goodness sake!!!

This is Silas..

part of the walking stage

other models

this guy here..haha..the more he stares at me the more i laugh then more of his pics gets blur..

meeting and waiting for their turn..btw..they are from LKW..familiar right??

someone i caught walking..haha..i was upstairs..

someone ask me to take a snap on him working..

This is their walking coach, ABby


This is Amber


Vanessa


Sherry


Barney..fooling around during practice..


barney and amber



Jane


Helen..taking her break..

Here's a sneak peek on their fashion show costumes and accessories..

Lol..guess who was fooling around??


Haha..caught them smiling..


Barney tying his hair..


Valentine fooling around...


caught helen smiling..

this is james..haha..

Lol...kinda mixed up the timing of the pics taken...coz im a little screwed by this blog now..so lazy wanna arrange them properly..here's just part of it..well..will put up more after the event..when i have my time to blog again..till then..

Mother's Day

Because of that nightmare 2 nights ago..im not having proper sleep lately..
And today...is Mother's Day..
How did i celebrate it???
it's just another day to me..like normal days..but the food..hahahahahaha....
lunch at ten-ichi....these is what me and my family had at there..it's became part of my photo essay..hopefully kenny accepts it..there's 1 food i missed taking photo of it..it's in my stomach..haha..

First thing that came out..4gt what it's called..i got to ask my mum again..

That's my mummy..haha..she's eating erm..some unagi rice -.-

That is unagi sushi..Lol..there's suppose to be 2 there..
but my grandma's mouth terlalu cepat

I drank this..miso soup..

Then this is mine..tempura cold noodles..couldn't finish tho..
because erm..i don't have big appetite in the mornings..

See..this is my mum's again..she really can eat eh..


Ok..this is something new..erm..it's ebiko and unagi both mixed..
Not bad..really nice to eat..it's only rm16 per set if im not mistaken..

Oh ya..by the way..no sashimi for this lunch..1st time..u know y???it's becoz..my house have more than enough...wakakakakaka..

Went boulevard shopping after that..i was being vain in the car all the way...snapping and snapping..thanx so much for the lens..

was suppose to bring someone out to limteh but it's cancelled due to the stupid hot weather that spoil my mood..dinner was nice too..but i din take pic..it's just home cook food..but western style..hoho..lamb chop..lamb soup..hrmm...some japanese peas..and shisiamo..japanese fish with lots of eggs in it..and french fries..and out of the blue..there's rice...wakaka...

Lol..i'll stop here for now..nothing much today..but one more thing..

is it fate or coincidence?

is it fate or coincidence??
always bumping into that someone
at a place that never thought of
at a time that never thought of

you..
you just happened to be there
at that very moment
never was it a date or an appointment
you just happened to turned up there
always to think it was a coincidence..
but starting to think it's becoming a fate..
without fate there's no coincidence

And today
stepping right at the front door
and to see
the first person turned out to be you
starring back with a surprised look
never was i stalking you
yet the timing was so right
at that place at that time
gave all these questioning thoughts in the mind

trying so much not to think about it
but all of these came with a sudden rush
everything just ran back through the mind
whether it has been a fate or a coincidence
it is yet still a mystery
and still waiting for the answer

...everything went wrong today...

ARGH!!!
Another day yet not just any other ordinary day...
It's a day of disaster..
Nothing went right..
Everything went wrong today...for me..and only me...=.=

1.  i was late for class again..class ended not long after i went in..
2. went to jade pot for lunch and i nearly knock a car during parking..
3. after lunch my car door cannot open..the remote's battery about to finish..i manage to open it
    for one last time...
4. this one is the worse for the day..I GOT MYSELF IN A CAR ACCIDENT!!!a middle aged man
    knocked me right from the back..right when i was about to turn into campus..got my car
    bumper crack, slunted and the back door curved..zzz...
5. end up sitting in the police station for the next 2 hours waiting to make report..without air-
    condition..imagine the heat today...after making the report the police told me..."u'll have to
    come back again..."...WTH???!!!
6. went back to campus...small world..zzz...
7. road block...is was the police i seen in the past 2 hours..
8. finally back to my home sweet home, online for like 15 minutes and the whole sky went     black..with thunder and wind..and suddenly the whole heavy rain came pouring...zzz..and     then..no electric in the house...really...what is wrong with today..it's not friday the 13th...

finally..my nite is much better..peaceful..but i'll be staying up doing assignments..no matter how sick i am..coz im caught in flu at the moment..just praying my computer is not goin to die halfway..if not today will definitely be  a black friday..btw..i've decided to delete most of my things in frenster..i've no idea why im doing dis..but i feel no longer have the fun in life at the moment..at this moment..i need ppl to cheer my life up..is there any??