Expectations are always the other way round..

i misses u, loves u, n i will just pretend to hug u, even tho u will never be next to i. u will always stay beside tv.
i hopes there's an alphabet that's a whole lot better than i to be with u

Without knowing
I fell for you
Do you feel the same??
I guess not

It should be expected
As always
The person u expect the most happens to be the person who doesn't care at all
The person u always hope for never turn out to be that exact person

But not to be expected
The person u never expect for always happened to be the person who appears suddenly
The person u never hope for always turn out to be them

Why??
Why am i feeling this world is upside-down??
Why am i feeling this world is fooling with me??
Why am i feeling this world is full of disappointment??
Yet...
I'm tired
Can i rest??
No...i can't..
My heart is no longer with me..
It ran over to ur side which i have no control of it...

Just a simple wish
And yet i couldn't get it

don't have to be with them to love them..

" ...i now know that trust isn't based on the length of time i've known someone...but, how i'm feeling with someone at that moment in time. "

" ...when we're babies, we just 'are', and we don't have to worry about what we're going 'to be'...but, when we grow up, we worry about what we're going 'to be', and we often stop being who we are... "

" ...i always love to see you...but, i don't have to see you to always love you. "

" ...the more i look for the perfect person to fulfill me, the more possessive i am for fear of losing them...the more that i see that we are all perfect, and it's journey of staying in touch with that perfection that's so fulfilling, the more i allow others to grow, and i become closer to them. "

" ...i used to feel spent wondering what you were feeling...now, it's a wonderful feeling spending time with you, knowing we can share "WHATEVER" we are feeling. "

" ...it hurts that others want to hurt us...it hurts more, if we don't see that others want to hurt us because they've been hurt by others...and it hurts most, if we want to hurt others beacuse others have wanted to hurt us. " --->as Gandhi said so beautifully......'an eye for an eye and we'll all be blind.'

" ...the unconditional love you have shown me in a moment, has shown me, that it 'is' possible to love, at every moment, under all conditions. "

" ...i want to talk with you to understand how you feel......not to try to make you feel the way i do. "


" ...when i speak i'm saying what i already know, when i listen i want to know more than i'm able to say......
when i argue i need to be right, when i discuss i want to share......i hope my desire to love, is stronger than my need to be right."

" ... the more open we are the less we seem strangers......i've known people i've just met better than some people i've known for years......i've known people who i've become strangers with......i just hope we're always open......you're just too precious to be a stranger. "


" My painful experiences can be positive as they can make me a deeper and more understanding person;
My beautiful experiences are positive and they give me extra strength and faith to face my painful experiences.
If i avoid having painful experiences, i seem to lose the beautiful ones......and my spirit S.l.o.w.l.y. d.i.e.s. "

" If you have somtehing nice to say about me, please say it to me now while i'm still alive and need it, not when it's too late and i'm gone already. "

" ...when i'm infatuated, i 'only see' how good-looking someone is...and then i 'hope' they're a beautiful person......when i'm loving, i 'see only' the beauty within someone...and it doesn't matter how they look. "

" ...when i forgive, i'm freeing myself to love at that moment in my life......when i forget that i forgave, i'm filling my life full of those moments......if i'm here for giving......i'll be getting, if i'm here for getting......i hope i'll be forgiven. "

" ...If you won't be honest with me because you're worried about hurting me......you'll hurt me so much more if i find out you were dishonest."

" ...one of the most beautiful things about you is your warmth and love for people...
...it's what attracted me to you;
...it's what the world really needs;
...it's what makes you so 'SPECIAL'...
...i hope i always encourage, and not try to process, the love you have for people and life......it will make our relationship 'special'. "

" The moments we share together are so special. Thank you for them and for the magic of you.."


"Your laughter makes my eyes brighter...so don't stop laughing...
Your smile makes my heart enlightened...so don't stop smiling...
You are what makes my day perfect...so don't leave me...
When i relax my mind begins to reflect..
On how wonderful life has been...since you came..."

" I may not be able to help you or make you feel better..But, i'll be there for you. Even if you don't speak one word and cry in silence..i'll be by your side cause that's what friends are for.."

L.O.V.E...

Just a little something worth sharing...i found it somewhere..

Love. What is love? There is no "REAL" definiton for love. Love to different people holds different meanings. Love to me is when your heart skips a beat whenever you see that person. Love is when your eyes meet across the room and the world just stops spinning. Love is when u get that stupid, sickly smile on your face whenever you think of that special somebody.


Some people may think that love hurts. Based on a Chinese proverb, it is stated that when you hit somebody, it is because you love them. And when you scold somebody, it is because you care for them. I do not agree with this. Love doesn't hurt. If it does, then what is the point of ever falling in love? Love is a beautiful thing. Love does not abuse. But thanks to this perseption, most people think that love is abuse How can you love a person yet abuse them? Many abuse cases go unreported because according to the abused, their abuser abuses them because he loves them.


Anotherr frequent question asked about love is how to differentiate between true love and puppy love? From my point of view, true love is when you are willing to do stupid things for that person without even considering the consequences. Such as, driving all the way just to get the person ice cream ( THIS I WOULD DO FOR ****** *** ) or saving up every penny just to get that person something nice. Puppy love is merely a crush you have on that person. Puppy love is more superficial because most people who experience puppy love only falls for their crush's looks and not who that person really is. Crushes usually pass after a while. I mean that sure, you are sad, but you get over it True love is when you wait forever for that ONE person, knowing you might never even get a chance to be with them. It's like doing things for that person, no matter how crazy, hoping that one day maybe, JUST MAYBE, he or she will feel the same way for you.


Then, there's love and lust. Love is when you call that person in the middle of the night just to hear their voice. The difference with lust is that you call to have phone sex with that person and not to talk to him or her. Love is when on Valentine's Day, you sent her a bouquet of roses and take the time to make a card for her just to touch her heart. Lust is when you call her to come over to your place for a "booty call" , otherwise known as sex. Love is when you hold hands and you feel that she or he gives you inner strength. Lust is when your hand wanders to places you should not be touching. Love is when you look at that oerson and smile sheepishly and say, "Hi". Lust is when you open your eyes and do not remember the name of the person next to you in bed.


A question that has recently got everyone whispering is whether gay love is wrong. In my opinion, gay people are just as human as we are. So, there should not be any discrimination. I mean like, I've got a lot of gay friends and I don;t see what's wrong with them being together. Maybe because gay love is unorthodox so people find it weird? It maybe weird but it definitely isn't wrong. A straight couple is as much in love as any gay couple. Love is when two people, no matter gay or straight, feel affectionate towards each other. Both couoles feel the same way Both couples feel as though a part of them is missing whenever they are apart. I just don't see why everyone's making a big deal out of nothing.


Love can also be applied to friendship. I hold all my friends very close to my heart. I believe that life is like a tapestry and your friends are threads woven into that tapestry Some friends walk through your life without leaving fottprints but true friends leave their mark somewhere in your heart. I also believe in the "mirror theory". This theory states that the person you love is the exact copy of you, hence, a mirror. You cannot see yourself without a mirror. Friends are you "mirror" and they show you who you really are. The same theory applies for couples. You might complain about them but in retrospect, they have exactly the same qualitiesas you have. I believe that you must no be possessive in order for a relationship to work. Have you tried to hold sand? If you hold too tightly, all the sand will trickle out. But if you hold firmly, yet loosely, the sand stays. All couples must treat each other with respect. Love is built on trust and respect. If you don't respect and trust a person, how can you love him or her? Another thing about being too possessive is that your significant other feels like they don't have any freedom. There's no point falling in love if love feels like a prison. If a person wants to leave, let them. If he or she comes back to you, then it's love. If they don't then it was never meant to be. Painful as it may be, sometimes the best way is to let go. Love cannot be forced. It is either or not.


In conclusion, the definition of love is really up to the individual. When you have done all you can and the otehr person stil does not love you, there's no point forcing it. Leave everything in God's hands. Only He knows what he has in store for you. Last but not least, you should always tell the people you love that you love them because you never know what might happen to them. They might levae any second. The worst way to miss somebody is to be right beside them knowing that you may never see, feel or touch that person again.

Positive Negative

So confusing using this web...haizz..
But it is probably 1 place i can express my feelings and stuff here..

Slept over 12 hours finally..and now my head is damn heavy...woke up and all i could see were the scribbles of ur name on my table...

Last nite was a fun day...then a stressful evening...finally a much more relax midnite...

money or love???
i'll choose love...
maybe becoz im dreaming or trying not to be realistic


期待爱

My Life 一直在等待
空荡的口袋
想在裡面放 一份爱
Why 总是被打败
真的好无奈
其实我 实实在在
不管帅不帅

想要找回来 自己的节拍
所以这一次
我要勇敢 大声说出来

*期待 期待你发现我的爱
无所不在 我自然而然的关怀
妳的存在 心灵感应的方向
我一眼就看出来
是因为爱
我猜 你早已发现我的爱
绕几个弯 靠越近越明白
不要走开
幸福的开始 就是放手去爱

想要找回来 自己的节拍
所以这一次
我要勇敢 大声说出来

*期待 期待你发现我的爱
无所不在 我自然而然的关怀
妳的存在 心灵感应的方向
我一眼就看出来
是因为爱
我猜 你早已发现我的爱
绕几个弯 靠越近越明白
不要走开
幸福的开始 就是放手去爱

1st blogspot - 1st starting of my confusion

   1st bloggy spot...nothing amuses me today...until i ran over someone's blog that suddenly gave me the interest to even bother to create this..i won't know how long this will last and how many am i goin to write..if u bother read..if none of this bothers u leave...

   All im wondering lately is "it is you??is it you??"
   All the "W"s  are going thru my head...

   What amazes me??Why does it turn out to be u??When all these started??Why are u taking part in my life so much??Why are all the thoughts bout you going thru my head most of the time??etc..

   Everything ends up to the question: "Why is it you??"
   Everything ends up to the answer: "i have no idea"
   
   I have so many questions yet no answers..wanting to know yet afraid to know..yet im just waiting..hoping for the answers someday..i might get it and i might not get it...

Since the day you appeared in my life
i dono why
i told myself u're worth waiting
it's not ur appearance that attracts me
yet i dono why
i told myself u're worth waiting
it's not ur skills and talent that amuses me
yet i dono why
 i told myself u're worth waiting

I'm afraid you had someone else in ur life
yet i dono why
i told myself u're worth waiting
i might never get an answer from you
yet i dono why
i told myself u're worth waiting

Since the day you were part of my life
that's when i started to be myself
   i could have all those feelings shown
happy or sad
Tho i don think u realised that
u're climbing up the ladder in my heart to the top

everytime i see u around
all i want is just to be there for u
when u're sick, happy or sad
all i want is just to be there for u
when u need someone to be there for u
all i want is to be the 1st to be there for u

i wish for me to be ur first
and yet hope to be ur last
yet no matter what thoughts are appearing
i just keep telling myself
u're worth waiting